When you choose happiness, you'll find happiness.

In times of difficulty I find that I must choose to be happy. My mind sometimes does not work the way that I want it to go, I can't find the happiness that I seek. It's a mix of depression and anxiety. I've often described, to the one's that know me, my mind is like a roller coaster. 

Tick-tick-tick, we go up the first climb. My mind says, stop and get off of the ride before the inevitable happens. Then...

Wooshhh... I'm off of the rails. I lost control, nobodies fault but mine.

I lose the control that I wish I had, I have to find a way to happiness.